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I seriously cannot even believe this title was available. It may seem like a small deal to you but it is not to me. It comes from a verse in the Bible: "But you are a chosen people, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, God's special possession, that you may proclaim the excellencies of him who called you out of darkness into his wonderful light." 1 Peter 2:9. Out of darkness I sure have come. Not that I am there, or have arrived, but I am out of the darkness. That was a terrible place to be. Proclaiming excellencies is the least I can do.

Thank God I am not in that place now, but at a place where I can truly take a deep breath and know that it will be okay. Life will be okay. The journey I am on that I did not get to pick, to the extravagant emotions that range from breathtaking awe and beauty to extreme heartache and moments of sheer breathlessness. Sometimes those two ranges of emotion happened at the same time. How the human mind and soul can handle all of this is beyond my ability to comprehend. I do not see a shrink (although a good argument could be made for me to make this happen) but figured I could instead blog about it. You know the world needs more opinionated people letting people know what they think.

Everyone has a story. Some have hard lives from the day they were born. Others like me came from a more blessed upbringing and the major life altering trials came later. At the time you could not have told me my problems were not a big deal. Because my life at the time was all there was. Ah yes, ignorant me. Honestly, it is a great thing that grown people do not divulge all the extreme details of the later years because our minds would have exploded. We might all have taken the gypsy single life over the college life. Not that I am judging anyone who has done this (I really am not). This life is hard to handle no matter what path you chose for yourself or the paths that are allowed for you once you picked the direction. That whole free will idea.

That should blow your mind like is does mine. We have this free will but then we make choices that bite us in the rear. Maybe things happen out of our control because we did not bother to consult The Counselor. Oh yes, I have quite the ashamed experience in this category. I am sure I am not alone, either. Not that it makes me feel that much better when I have to lie in my own pile, because it does not. Lessons learned really only sink in for me when I experience all there is to experience first hand. Yep. Go me. 

Even through my wild idiocy I have been tremendously blessed. Maybe His mercy and His grace really do cover all (imagine He is true to ALL His words)! That took a while to learn, but heavens. So good to know. 

As far as concrete direction for each of my entries goes.....bahahaha. Right. I feel like I could type forever when I start but have no clear direction because there are just so many options. This will be a nice little ride I suppose. Jump on or don't. I am excited I am finally answering the call to "write". Okay, God. I will write. For whatever purpose, after 4 years of telling me to, here I go.